NOW LEVEL UP
WHAT IS THE ONLY OPTION I HAVE IN THIS MOMENT? I MADE A CONSCIOUS CHOICE... COMMITMENT. TO MYSELF. TO STOP NUMBING, TO STOP RUNNING, TO STOP CHECKING OUT OF THIS GAME AND TO WAKE UP… TO RISE UP. TO CHECK BACK INTO THIS GAME. TO FIND MY PURPOSE.
Cassandra lost her brother Jason in April of 2013 to a heroin overdose; at the same time battling with her own addictions and unhealthy programing. Alone, struggling, continuously checking out of the game, Cassandra created and manifested a car accident just six months after losing her brother on 11.11.2013 @ 1:11 a.m.
Waking up alone, confused in that hospital bed… the only thing she was sure of was seeing Jason on the other side…
“When I woke up in the hospital bed, I was alone. Confused, scared with the only lingering recollection being seeing Jason on the other side telling me “You are not alone Cass, I am here. But you need to go back. You are to create a channel to allow everyone to know they are not alone. Please remember…you are not alone.” There was never a moment inside of me where I didn’t believe in this. I knew I had seen him… clear as day… he was in the same hospital gown, the one I had said goodbye to him in before his funeral. I knew I had felt him, I knew my truth in that moment. I knew IT WAS MY moment.
For months prior I would drive to work and create countless illusions around myself being in a hospital bed. All the ‘love’ that would show up for me... all the people that would come and ‘finally’ care about me. The hours I spent channeling this illusion was the energy in which created my now reality. The reality I was now awake with. The reality of: WE COME IN THIS WORLD ALONE AND WE GO OUT OF IT ALONE…. BUT IT’S ABOUT WHO WILL YOU BECOME WHILE YOU ARE HERE? THAT’S A FUCKING REALITY CHECK POINT I NEEDED TO SIT WITH. Am I going to go back to the life I was living? The one that was obviously no longer serving me? Was I going to continue to numb out of the game? Or was I finally ready to make the proper steps to powerfully checking back into the game?
I sat in that hospital bed for days, hours, seconds… MOMENTS. And I made a decision in those moments. I AM LOVE. I WILL WORK DAY IN AND DAY OUT TO BECOME A DEEPER AND DEEPER FORM OF LOVE. ONE THAT WHEN YOU ARE FACED WITH IT YOU HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE TO FIND THAT POINT WITHIN YOURSELF THAT MAYBE YOU FORGOT ABOUT OR RAN FROM OUT OF FEAR AND ALLOW THAT TO FLOW AGAIN. NO CHOICE BUT TO REMEMBER THAT LOVE THAT WE ALL HAVE. OUR BIRTH PLACE... OUR HOME... I was to become the perfect mirror. I was to become the warrior within each and every one of us, the one within my brother to fight for these wings. To fight for the real peace, the one within. From that moment on I have never been alone. I had finally found myself. I HAD FINALLY LEVELED UP.” -Cassandra M. Bauer
LEVEL UP has become a HOME for angels to find their wings to FLY AGAIN or lay their wings down and know that it’s always OKAY to just BE. Level Up is here as a social movement, a daily conscious commitment, a way of life, a commitment to SELF. Level up is a METHOD of living a life where YOU get to create your fairytale in all your moments to uncover the TRUTH of why YOU chose this TIME, THIS REALM AND THIS DIMENSION.
In the process of our creation An alphabet of Jason’s handwriting was created. Sampled from his journals, the alphabet is a telling visual of his vibrancy, his poetry, his boldness. LEVEL UP exists as an ongoing memoriam to my brother, and an effort to project his spirit; our message.
Cassandra Mary Bauer, Founder